Maybe...

I read more.
I read 3 to 4 or more books at any given time.
I want to know more, learn more.
Find out whether physics actually proves the immortality of my souL.
What these boys actually do on the road,
who said what to whom on the rolling stones,
The lines on your palms mean what?
And so on and so forth.
I wanna learn more.
I've got hanon, and bach, sightreading and chords and harmony and more chords and progressions that will someday make me play good.
I've got planning and schedules, and who's on at 5 on wednesdays and teaching at trevose on thursdays and more ads.
I need to put out more ads.
I understand abit more, about the little things that lead to the big things like how a simple decision to do something or not to do something in the the current, present moment may affect you down the road.
I like the fact that I can see abit more clearly now and that the choices I make are important.
What leads to hate, fear, anger brings us further away from the light and these are the choices that are presented to us everyday.
I like the way I look now.
Check out my new IC picture.
I see how the people you're with at any given moment,
the chicken rice seller,
the kids at the bus stop,
your friends and your colleagues,
all made a secret pact to meet at this time and place way before you were born,
when you were souls, non-physical beings, when you were smarter and knew that you weren't just put here, thrown into situations at random, but that everyone presents us with a situation and then a choice.
I appreciate my loved ones more.
My girlfriend makes me laugh.
Love.
Light.
Maybe its cuz I'm 30.

Still.

When you hold all judgement, the world suddenly seems still.
Questions are not neccesarily answered, But...
Compassion takes over.
Understanding takes over.
Morality is a human concept.
Karma is impersonal.

The New Year.

I've got nothing much to say except that I'm stressed and anxious over the various possibilities and outcomes of my job. I think that the more I do this the better it'll get. Every new experience breaks me, takes its wild potshots at me, chip away at the stone, earth, and one day it all won't matter when the heart of it all is this.... You need to be cracked open to reveal the real you. I think? I'm no shrink. It's my own truth.
Beyond the elements, to the core.